Friday, February 5, 2010

When Your Down and Out

So I decided to tell the "friend" that I thought was more then a friend how I felt...and as u can see by the title of this post, I was quite let down. I was told that his feelings for me don't reach out any farther then the limits of the friendship and on top of that I had to learn a few weeks later that he was in a hot pursuit of making some girl his official girl. My heart hit the floor. I couldn't understand how all the time we spent together, the talking everyday, the always going out, the meeting of each others family and friends, the laying under the sheets together, the "I love you" n "good morning baby" texts and the casual flirting in your mind never set off any alarms. How you could do all those things and not even look at me in that light. How when we needed some1 to talk to we were there for each other, and when we dealt with losses and gaining we were there to uplift each other, how we were the epitome of best friends and you never saw that the girl right in front of you, who was down for you, wasn't the right choice. And then the girl you were trying to wife went back to her boyfriend when you thought she was going to leave, what a shame. I love you. I think I can honestly say that I love u more then you will ever really know, and its a shame that you'll never even see. right now what can i say? I'm down yes, who wouldn't be, but trust, I'm definitely not out.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Lovers vs. Friends

So it seems as though I've put myself in a situation that not only have I never been through before, but neither have any of my friends, or their friends, or anybody we could think of off the top of our heads been through. I'm talking about that, "I like you, but your my friend, but we'd make a great couple, but I don't want to ruin the friendship" situations. Long right? So my question is, when is it okay to just take a stand and say, "HEY! I want to be with you! So lets just be together!" or......is moving the friendship into a relationship even worth the risk of ruining a strong and close friendship. Many say that friends make the best companions but are those that say it really living proof?? I don't know; but times a ticking and I'm sure ready to find out.